In the middle of my last project for the last class of my MBA I took an evening off. I watched a movie. I cross-stitched someone else's pattern. And I felt at ease.
I hadn't thought of myself as an artist for a couple months, but I definitely wasn't done yet.
I couldn't give up crafting and creating, even if it seemed easier to do so in the face of other pressures and the loving neediness of a small child.
I needed to make space for them in my life in some form or fashion, even if it didn't feel like it did before, when I was immersed in thoughts of layers and colors and was doing something about them nearly every day.
So I am trying to start fresh, with a new mindset and much more relaxed set of expectations.
And with a new blog.
You can still find all my old entries at http://www.artbybethrobinson.com/journal but just looking at my category list and the many months of what I'd done before made me feel depressed, not accomplished. So here I am again.
I've circled around back to the beginning of my journey. Okay, I have a higher skill level and many more books and other supplies. But it's basically me and needle and floss again, looking to see where my next steps will take me.